slimmersoon

I don’t have anything in particular to say today.  I am really glad that it is Friday- and I don’t have to work this weekend.  Usually when I work on Friday, I work Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.  For some reason I really didn’t want to go to work today.  It wasn’t a bad day at all I just think that it’s a little bit of burnout.  I am hoping that the weekend off will help.  I enjoy what I do and the people I work with but sometimes all of the little things that irritate one, just pile up into a big mess. 

Food today…. okay, so far… I did eat breakfast this morning as I only had to work an 8 hour shift, I had more time this morning.  Breakfast has been a problem for me on days that I work.  I have some nutri grain cereal bars in my locker at work and if I’m not too busy I try to have one of those, this often doesn’t happen.  I know how important breakfast is when you are trying to lose, well period really.  I just cannot bring myself to eat at 4:30 or 5:00 in the morning, it makes me feel sick.  I must say that I did feel better since I ate this morning, but was absolutely starving by lunchtime.  Sometimes when I don’t eat breakfast I can make it until late afternoon before I start to feel hungry, however I know that this is not good.  Water still not so good, but have a bottle ready to go.  I ate the rest of last nights salad for lunch and am now cooking chili for supper.  I love chili when its cold outside.  I tried to pep up my chili with lots of veggies and even added a V8.  But now I have a confession.  I had part of a cupcake; not a whole one.  In fact I had 1/4 last night and 1/4 when I got home today.  I know I didn’t need it but I think that I am showing great restraint in that I didn’t suck the whole thing down at once.  Cake is definately my weakness and I couldn’t possibly imagine never having it again, so every once in a while in moderation maybe isn’t so bad.

I know this is probably too much information, especially for you guys but… it is that time of the month and usually I require lots of medication for cramps and such.  However, I have been eating healthier the last two weeks and I don’t know that it’s related but I have had almost no cramping whatsoever. (knock on wood)  Yesterday I felt a bit bloated but not so much today.  I watch that show You Are What You Eat on BBCAmerica and according to Jillian a healthy diet can rid symptoms of PMS.  That’s reason in itself to go healthy.

Tomorrow I have a wedding to go to and as my guy has to work, looks like I’ll be going it alone.  I have asked a friend to go with me but have no answer yet, taking that as a no.  I’m excited in a way, but then again not so much.  It’s a friend from high school and college that I havn’t seen much in the last couple of years.  I’m really happy for her and I know that she will be a beautiful bride.  I’m just not into seeing everyone from the high school years, I would love to have been smaller beforehand.  I have always struggled with weight, but in high school is when I got down to my smallest.  I was a cheerleader and into some sports.  I was cute then and in really good physical shape, I want to get back to that again.  Maybe this can just be another thing that motivates me.  It will be great to catch up with everyone.

Sorry for rambling on and on about nothing, but thanks for listening.  Sometimes it helps just to get it out.

Today was weigh in day.  While it wasn’t what I had hoped, it was still a loss.  I’m down another pound.  So in two weeks I have lost a total of 4 pounds, an average of two pounds per weeks, which is a recommended amount for healthy weight loss.  But somehow I feel bad that it wasn’t more.  Why do we always do that to ourselves?  I should just be happy that I’m losing.    Wouldn’t it be great if we could lose as fast as we gain?  I think that next week I will show a better loss (this week is TOM and I am retaining water).  Oh well, onward and upward I’ll take my 1 pound loss and work to have a bigger loss next week! 

Today has been a good day.  I was off work today.  I went into town to do some Christmas shopping today.  I had only one gift bought before today.  Today I picked up a few gifts, all of the kids in the family are done except for my niece but I know what I want to get her.  The big gifts that I need to buy, I’m still at a loss…. I have no idea what to get them.  I hate waiting until the last minute to get holiday shopping done.  Hopefully I will be able to get some more shopping done this weekend, I am taking off work because I have a wedding to go to Saturday night.  Food was good today.  I ate a bagel for breakfast, had a V8 mid-morning and sushi for lunch.  My brother and I went to a new sushi resteraunt in town, it was really good.  I have been eating sushi for a few years now but still havn’t been brave enough to do the raw fish thing.  The closest I ever came was smoked salmon in a philadelphia roll.  Well today I faced my fear and went for it.  I was surprised, it was really, really good.  I keep hearing about how healthy sushi is and have been looking for new ideas for eating out that won’t blow all of my work out of the water, I think I may have found a new favorite place to eat out!  On my way home I picked up some salads and ate less than half, I will take the rest for lunch at work tomorrow.  I still need to work more on getting more water.  I have not gotten in any exercise yet today, but am about to go and get on the stability ball to do some ab work.  May even use my weight bench for a bit, it is feeling very lonely back there in the spare room, it hasn’t been used in a very long time.

Oh! a positive for today.  When Christmas shopping I decided to try on some tops, possibly to wear to the wedding this weekend.  Well as I usually wear an XL or 14/16 most of the tops that I tried on (at two different stores) were too big.  How cool is that!  Usually trying on clothes depresses me because things don’t fit right and I end up leaving feeling fatter than I did when I went in, but not today.  Of all of the things I tried, nothing was tight or made me feel like a sausage, yay.  I didn’t buy any of the tops- because nothing was fabulous enough to warrant spending the money.  I did buy a belt though.  I have not worn a belt in several years, also havn’t worn a shirt tucked in in several years.  But after tugging at my pants all day, I decided that a belt was in order.  I know that I havn’t lost much weight yet, but I only bought these pants a month and a half ago and they are loose.  I thought about going to Old Navy to try these jeans in the next size down, but I’m not sure I’m there yet and didn’t want to ruin a good day.

Hope all of you are having a good Thursday.

Sorry I wasn’t able to post yesterday.  It was a long day and the crappy dial up connection I had told you about crapped out completely.

Recap from yesterday since I didn’t get to post (my telephone line for the computer had some issues-got it fixed today).  Yesterday was an unbelievably long day at work.  I’m a nurse and I got pulled to a different area of the hospital than where I usually work, for an 8 hour shift then went back to my regular area to finish out my full 12 hours.  I was stressed a little due to the fact that I was unfamiliar with the routine of the other area and I stayed busy- no big deal it was a pretty good day overall.  I didn’t get to eat breakfast and only had a 270 calorie lean cuisine.  I also got in tons of walking at work.  After work I had to run by the grocery store and pick up some more lunch foods for us to take to work.   So I went from 4:30 am to 8:30 pm on only 270 calories, needless to say I was starving by the time I finally got home and could eat (oh and had no water all day, whatsoever).  So I just grabbed what was quick and easy.  I had egg rolls for dinner, and they were good.  I thought it would be worse but calories for the entire day came up to less than 1200.

Today, I have been in a blah mood, no reason really.  I didn’t sleep well last night- I think that I was too exhausted to actually fall asleep, ever happened to anyone else?  When I got up I was stiff all over, I must have walked more yesterday than I realized.  I have spent most of the day just hanging out around the house, the telephone guy came this morning and fixed whatever was wrong with our line.  I have had a headache for the majority of the day, which I finally got rid of with Motrin and diet coke (caffeine).  I think that PMS is just getting the better of me, which by the way makes me really nervous about weighing in tomorrow morning.  Anyways, sorry I know that I am rambling again. 

Food I guess has been okay today.  I ate breakfast today!  Lunch and dinner were combined into one meal, probably a little high but I think I’m still keeping calories withing a reasonable range today.  I must confess still no exercise, last week I had made plans to exercise every day that I was off, unfortunately I think that only lasted one day.  My motivation is waning, which I am going to blame on PMS.  I know that’s not the only reason.  I have always tended to do really good for a little while, then okay for a while, then bad, then really bad….. then start over at good again.  It’s a viscious cycle and I need to get off that merry go round.  I want to get into the mindset of a healthy lifestyle.  I don’t want to be really strict until I get to a certain date or certain weight.  I want to retrain myself and the way I think.  I want to get in the habit of exercising so that instead of it being something I have to or need to do- it will be something I want to do.  I want to eat a healthy balanced diet that I can do without feeling like I’m missing out or being deprived.  I don’t want to have to count calories or points for the rest of my life- I know that right now I need that but I hope that one day I can make healthy decisions without doing that, that will help me to maintain a healthy weight.  I’m going to get there…it’s a ways off, but I’ll do it.  Okay off of my soapbox for now- thanks for listening.  Thanks to all of the comments and support it keeps me going, especially in times that my motivation is low, like now. 

sorry folks, but it’s going to be a short one today.  First off it has been a really long day today, had work all day.  It’s late now and my dial up internet connection is crap tonight.  But on a brighter note, food was good today I kept my calories low.  I had planned on trying to drink more water today but managed to only drink 3 cups- must do better tomorrow.  No formal exercise but I did a lot of running around at work today, which probably adds up to around 20-30 minutes of walking.  All in all not a bad day, I’m just tired- my lazy weekend spoiled me and I didn’t want to go back to work.  Oh well.  Hope everyone had a good Monday and getting back on track after Thanksgiving.  How is everyone doing?

It’s cold and raining outside and warm and cozy inside.  So that is where I have been all day, inside on my comfy couch.  I really have not accomplished anything today.  I love lazy days when there is nowhere you have to be and nothing that has to be done.  There is plenty that I could have and should have done today, but didn’t!  I have been catching up on lots of blog reading today, so that is a plus for me.   I have also watched several television shows that I recorded on DVR.  I really should have gotten up and exercised today.  I thought about it several times, but it is so damn hard to get my shoes on.  Don’t laugh!  It seems like the shoes are the hardest obstacle for me.  I will get my water bottle, the iPod, everything ready for the treadmill but then will go to get my shoes and get sidetracked and completely give up.  I know, I know–excuses.  Anyways, I have decided to just enjoy today as a true day off- a day off from everything, and it has been great. 

Food hasn’t been too bad today either.  Usually on lazy days I would snack all day, but today I have done pretty good.  I had some leftovers from our Thankgiving dinner that we did yesterday, and I am now munching on a salad.  I even drank a V8 today when I started to get the urge to snack. (not something I would normally reach for)  Tomorrow is back to work and that means back to routine.  I will pack my lunch for tomorrow and have a low cal snack for the afternoon.  This week I am going to try harder to get in water.  If I haven’t mentioned it before- I am absolutely addicted to diet coke.  I love it and don’t feel right without it.  Some people start off the day with coffee, not me, bring on the diet coke.  But we just bought a case of water and I plan to do my best to get in 6-8 cups a day this week.

Hope that all of you had a fantastic holiday weekend!

Sorry that I have not been able to post for the last two days, but they were very long work days.  Again, up at 4:30 am and getting home around 8pm.  I did my weigh in yesterday morning but was unable to get online to post.   I lost 3 pounds!!!!!!  My first week of buddyslim and I am so excited.  Since I had to work yesterday, didn’t get to do Thanksgiving.  For lunch I had a turkey and dressing lean cuisine:)  My mom did fix us some plates of food from their dinner at my aunts.  It made it so much easier, there was just enough for each of us to have a plate and we were full, but not stuffed.  No desserts, was way too tired.  These long days are killing me.  I was a little nervous when I got on the scale this morning but was only up   .2 from yesterday morning.

Not really sure of plans for this weekend yet.  But I am off and no work! Yay!  Today I am trying to catch up on laundry and my house cleaning.  I need to go and see family since I missed out yesterday.  We are cooking our Thanksgiving dinner for my mom and brother this weekend. Since there are only 4 of us we plan on keeping it small.   That will be good for me as the less leftovers the better. 

Hope everyone had a wonderful Thankgiving.  Thanks again to everyone who left me messages, it really keeps me going.

Don’t really know where to start today.  It’s been an up and down day.  I started off really well then I slipped, I stumbled, and fell on my butt.  But now I have picked myself back up and am moving forward.  First of all let me recap- the last few days I have been tracking everything I eat and keeping up with calories and such.  I must say I have done pretty good, calories have been low and I even got in some exercise.  Last night, being the geeks that we are, we were bored and built a fire and roasted hot dogs.  Corny I know but we had a great time.  Anyway, sorry I know I am rambling, even with that I was still well below my daily limit for calories.  I even saw a loss of 3 pounds this morning when I got on the scale! :)  (Official weigh in will be Thursday am)  Today, I got up and had a healthy low cal breakfast and we went into town.  Did some Christmas shopping, didn’t really buy; more of looking for ideas of what to buy.   (Found lots of stuff for me, LOL)

Everything was fine and then I started to get into a funky mood-don’t really know why.  But we all know where that can lead….when trying to decide on lunch plans, I was like “whatever, don’t care” and we ended up just eating in the mall….at the Mexican Resterant.  Not good for a girl trying to diet.  I could have chosen something semi-healthy, but did I?  No mam.  I had chips and salsa and ordered Fajita Nachos on top of that.  I know, I know…will not get slimmersoon doing things like this.  (It was good at least)  I have no excuse for my behavior other than to confess that my inner fat girl escaped and made me do it, she is pure evil and must be stopped!  I must say as bad as that was, I did only eat half and quit as soon as I started to feel full.  I realized and owned the fact that I made a poor choice and decided right then that I would get back on track today!  Normally I would have let the inner fat girl run rampant for the rest of the day but not today.  I shut her up and will do my best to not let her back out.  After lunch we went grocery shopping and I bought healthy low cal lunch supplies and tons of veggies and fruit.  When I got home I put away all of the groceries and put on supper- cooking lean pork, a tenderloin, and will have salad and steamed veggies to go with.  When I got a hankering for something sweet, I bypassed the cookies and had fruit.  I do sooooo love cantaloupe.  I got on-line and read some blogs to motivate me and here I am.  I have fallen but refused to let it keep me down.  I’m back up and on track-  I’m proud of myself, I know its a small victory but as I have learned from fellow bloggers- all of the little things can add up to big results.

Didn’t get in official exercise today, but did a lot of walking while shopping and am about to go and move around some furniture to clean out spare room, we may have family come to stay this weekend.  Happy Tuesday!

Why O Why did I think the week before Thanksgiving would be a good time to start a weight loss plan?  I must be missing a few marbles.  I have been journaling my food since Friday and trying to make better choices, BUT today I am just not feeling optimistic.  I have been looking through my old Weight Watchers books and trying to decide if I want to try that again.  I know that I won’t be able to do meetings right now, because I just can’t get them in my schedule maybe after the new year.  But maybe I can go it on my own for a while and keep to their program.  I know that this week is going to be a rough one, I think I can make it through until Friday because of work, but this weekend….I’m just not sure.

Back to trying to decide on a plan.  I have been writing down what I’m eating and keeping up with the nutritional info and looking back at it today I’m stumped.  If I choose calorie counting I may be able to eat more of the foods I like, albeit not the best choices because of fat content.  I went back and calculated WW points for my food journal on Saturday and Sunday.  Saturday I did okay, in fact I managed to eat my exact points allowance without trying.  Sunday, however, was another story.  Even though my calories for the entire day only came out to be 1192 calories, WW wise the day tallied up to be 30 points.  That is 6 over the 24 that I am supposed to have for my weight range.  What gives?  I think the best thing for me this weeks is to just continue to journal everything that I eat and try not to go overboard.  I don’t want to start a program now and set myself up for failure.  I’m afraid if I fail and have a bad start I will want to give up all together.  I really want to make this work this time, but I know me and I know my past history.

On a more positive note, today hasn’t been bad so far… I did get to sleep in a bit because no work today.  I had some cheerios and skim milk for breakfast.  I did some work around the house then got myself on the treadmill.  I walked two miles in 50 minutes, I know not very fast but I’m just getting back in and want to pace myself.  I had a ceasar salad for lunch-only 150 calories.  I’m still hungry though, I’m trying to keep busy so I won’t eat but I may need to eat something filling that is low cal to hold me over until dinner, which I have no idea of what that will be either.  I’m working on planning meals through Thursday right now and have already planned exercise for all of my off days.  I’m hoping to get in 30-60 minutes of cardio today (50 min today done) and tomorrow and all weekend and maybe spend some time using my dust covered weight bench.  I’m going to weigh again on either Wednesday or Thursday, not sure which because of work I may not be able to post on Wednesday.  But I will get back to you guys with results either way. I’m looking for a loss this week.  Next weeks weigh in is the one I don’t think will be so great.  But you never know!

I’m looking for support to get through this Holiday weekend.  What are some things you guys do to stay motivated and stay on track?  Any ideas would be greatly appreciated.

I am so excited!  I had a really good day today even though I had to work a very long 12 hours.  I packed a healthy lunch and even fit in two walks today during my breaks, one for 15 minutes and one for 20 minutes.  I’m proud of myself for sticking to this so far.  But I must say that I am terrified at making it work this week.  To start, I’m off for the next two days- I did fine at work mainly because it’s hard to leave and get something different so I stick with what I bring.   Being off I have a whole kitchen full of food at my disposal and we often go out to eat on our days off.  I have never been one that can easily resist the temptations of great resteraunt food even though the healthy choices are often good too.  Second, Thanksgiving- one of my favorite holidays, why because I love the food my family does at Thanksgiving.  It will help that I am working on the actual day, but my family is planning to get together this weekend and there will be lots of food then.  I will try and plan ahead but I don’t have the best willpower at times.  If food fails, and hopefully not, I am going to sit down tomorrow and plan out exercise for all of my days off.  Hopefully all will not be lost.

It’s been a long day.  I was up at 4:30 this morning to get ready and go to work and just getting in at 8:30pm.  I did manage to do well on eating today.  I had a nutrigrain cereal bar for breakfast and packed a healthy lunch, I also managed to avoid the temptations of food at work.  I journaled everything that has gone into my mouth so far and I’m at 730 calories.  I’m feel that I’m off to a pretty good start and hope to keep it going.  Monday, I am still going to work out a better plan to follow, loving all of the ideas that I’m getting.  When I have more time I want to check more into South Beach foods and what that plan consists of, I don’t know too much about it.  Sorry it’s a short post but am very tired and have to get up again at 4:30 tomorrow.  No exercise today, if work is not too busy tomorrow I will try to fit in a walk during break. Going to grab a bite of supper then off to bed.  Hope everyone is having a great weekend- hopefully not having to work:).