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Still not feeling 100%.  As I posted on Saturday- I’m sick.  My doctor did call me in some antibiotics so hopefully I can knock whatever this is out of my system.  Yesterday I did go back to work, but felt horrible yesterday morning.  I started feeling a little better as the day went on.  I’m glad that I was feeling a little better because my buddyslimming buddy from Texas (Susan) came into town.  I met her and her guy for dinner after I got off last night.  I miss her since she moved and it was great to catch up.

Today I slept in, still feeling blah.  We got up and went to town, had to take the truck back by the bodyshop (we just got it fixed a couple of months ago) the paint is coming off already.  The right person was not there so we have to go back another day.  I got some pictures developed at Target and ran into a friend from nursing school.  Did a few more errands and bought groceries and came home.  I got online to check in with everyone else but I really need to get up and clean my house. 

No big plans for tonight, had a couple of invites but just not feeling up to it.  We are just going to hang out at home and chill.  To all of you who are going out tonight, please be safe.  Have a great new year!

Today I’m not feeling so well, very under the weather.  My glands are swollen and sore and my throat hurts so bad that I can hardly swallow.  It started yesterday.  I feel tired and weak.  I hate being sick.  It’s not for me.  I have never been one to call in sick to work in fact only once since I started a year ago, but there is no way I could have gone in today.  I called my doctor (even though I hated to because it’s Saturday) and she is going to call me in something.  I’m hoping that I’m feeling better tomorrow because I have to go back to work.  On the plus side, I haven’t been able to eat much except soup and such.  I went to the store this morning and loaded up on juice and diet sprite and medicine.  I’m hoping once I get my prescriptions started I can knock this out pretty quickly.  I really want to feel better by Monday so I can get back to my exercise plans.  Hope that all of you are feeling better than me.  Happy Saturday!

I weighed in this morning and I am very proud to say that I maintained.  I was afraid that I might have a gain due to all of the Christmas food but I didn’t!! Yay!!!  I have lost 6 pounds since I started here on buddyslim, back a week before Thanksgiving.  It doesn’t sound like much but this is a really big deal for me to be able to get through the holidays without gaining and actually maintaining a loss.  I still have not found the program to follow.  Up to this point I have just been trying to cut back and make smarter choices and yes I have slipped up many times.  I must say though, that knowing I can come here and get support helps me.  I can confess that I slipped and I get support to get back up and move forward.  Thanks to everyone who has supported me.  We went to the bookstore last night and I started looking through all of the diet and nutrition books -again.- I still haven’t found one that I think that I can stick to long term.  I’m going to keep researching and hopefully try something new in January.  I need more structure.  I am happy with what I have done so far but would really like to see the scale start to drop more.  I really want to get to my mini goal!  I know that to really see results I am going to have to start getting in exercise.  With that in mind, I bucked up today and dusted off my trusty old treadmill.  I walked for 70 minutes at just under 3 miles/hour and half of that time I walked with the incline on.  After about 15 minutes I started sweating and really wanted to quit but I kept going and after about 30 minutes I got into a good stride (had my magazine and my iPod) and just kept trucking, I actually lost track of time.  I ended up clocking in over 3 miles.  Then I was so excited that I got strait off the treadmill and headed over to the weight bench.  I did 10 minutes of arm exercises with the weights.  People this is big for me.  It has been a while since I have exercised.  Too long of a while.  I finished up with some stretching and I feel so much better knowing that I did my exercise today.  It really does up your energy.  Food-wise I got off to a semi-bad start.  I had pancakes, eggs, and bacon for breakfast- but didn’t go too overboard.  I think that this meal helped motivate me to get on the treadmill- guilt eats at you.  I had some sushi for lunch and dinner and snacked on a banana.  I got in more that enough water today (four or five 16oz. bottles so far).  With the end of the year nearing I have been thinking about what I have done this year.  Weight wise I have been up and down but I will end the year less than I started.  January 1, 2007 I weighed in at 194 and as of today I am 183 :)  I’m happy to take a 10 pound loss.  However, this year I would love to really lose down to my goal and keep it off.  I want to get healthy.  I started a new job in a new profession this year.  I can definately say that it wasn’t exactly what I had expected and nursing is hard and very stressful.  Sometimes I love my job and sometimes I hate it.  This new year I need to work more on me and finding out what makes me happy and avoid what doesn’t.  I think that if I’m in a good place with myself and how I feel about me that that will project into other areas, hopefully work included.  I’m in a great relationship, with a great guy and the longer we are together the better it seems to get.  We have been together 11 years so far.  We are really looking forward to starting a family and that is one of my biggest motivators to get healthy and in shape.  Well anyway, I’m rambling now.  I hope that all of my fellow buddyslimmers are doing well.  Thanks for all of your help and support and best wishes to everyone in the new year.

The last week has been so busy, with so much going on.  I had a really good Christmas, even though I had to work.  We did Christmas over the weekend for my family.  We all got to spend time together and really enjoyed ourselves.  Yes there was too much food, but I did so much better than I usually do.  I worked Christmas eve and Christmas day- which ended up not being as bad as I thought it would.  When I got off yesterday and we went to have Christmas with my guy’s family.  We had fun, everyone was cutting up with the kids and clowning around.  I did okay at the dinner but his sister in law made homemade candy and I just couldn’t resist- I ended up having more than I planned.  It was really good though.  I still have not gotten back on track exactly (we ate out today and oh the leftovers).  I have to get all of this holiday food out of my house and soon!  We still have a couple kinds of cookies, a chocolate cake, and baklava (my favorite) and that’s just the sweets.  Tomorrow is a new day and another weigh in.  I’m sure weighing in tomorrow morning will help to motivate me to clean out the fridge and all the leftover foods.  We did go to the grocery store today and I bought sushi stuff, salad fixings and some fresh fruits and veggies.  I will be good!  I got a new camera for Christmas and it is so cool, I love it.  However, after seeing some pictures of myself I was not happy with what I saw.  I need to get serious about losing weight and getting healthy.  Back on track-full speed ahead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So tomorrow I am cleaning out the bad to make room for the good.  Hopefully weigh in will not go too bad.  I’m going to try and get in some exercise tomorrow also.  I really need some energy and I’m sure it will make me feel better- just got to get together the motivation to get started.  I hope that all of you had a wonderful Christmas.  We all have so much to be thankful for.  I loved spending time with my family and friends but I must say I am very much looking forward to getting back on a normal schedule.  What are you doing to get back on track post-holidays?  Best wishes everyone!!! 

Hey guys, just checking in.  I haven’t been able to get online for a few days.  Hope that everyone is really enjoying their holidays.  We did our Christmas with my family yesterday and I really enjoyed it.  We cooked and ate and visited.  I got a new camera and can’t wait until I can really sit down and figure out how to use it.  My nephew got a Nintendo Wii and it has been so much fun.  All of the adults and kids have been taking turns playing-the bowling game is very fun-my arm is sore.  I haven’t done so good with eating on plan but I have really been enjoying the time with my family.  Tomorrow I will start back to focus on food and exercise.  My guy gave me a great compliment while I was in the kitchen yesterday, he walked in looked at me and said “Wow, you are really losing some weight aren’t you!”  That made my day.  Yesterday wasn’t so bad because I was so busy cooking all day and getting everything ready for everyone but today we have been just hanging out and eating leftovers.  I am going to try to get some exercise in this afternoon, hopefully.  Back to work tomorrow and will try to check back in soon.  I hope that all of you have a very wonderful Christmas!!!!

I decided to weigh in early this week, mainly because my schedule is going to be so busy that I’m not sure that I will be able to post again this week.  The verdict- I lost another pound.  I’m excited.  I had hoped for more but I’ll take it.  I have really been trying to make healthy choices when it comes to eating.  However, today I slipped.  We were out Christmas shopping again and we tried a new place.  I did not order healthy, in fact I got fried food.  This led to an important revelation for me.  I have been eating pretty well the last few weeks and havn’t had fried food in a while and it did not sit too well.  I guess my body got used to not having any grease and it let me know that it didn’t want it.  I started having stomach cramps and had to take some pepto.  No more fried food for me anytime soon!  Well tomorrow I’m back to work.  I am going to try to do my best foodwise but my work is having our Christmas dinner tomorrow.  I’m going to try and get in some extra water and some walking to help compensate.  I’m bringing salad so I will have at least one healthy choice. 

We are finally almost finished with Christmas shopping only two more people to buy for.  I can’t believe that this year has gone by so quickly.  Yesterday and today have been two days of marathon shopping.  I had gone on several occasions before but was not really serious about getting it done.  But it is now less than a week away!!! OMG.  I just put the rest of my Christmas cards in the mail today- hope they get there in time.  I will have to work both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day - 12 hour shifts.  My family and I decided yesterday that we will do my family’s Christmas this weekend.  So I really have to kick things into gear.  We were going to get a tree today, but time got away from us, hopefully we can get one Friday evening and get it finished before everyone gets here Saturday morning.  Oh and I still have all of the presents to wrap.  So much to do and so little time.  Hope all of you have a wonderful Christmas with your loved ones.  I will do my best to post again this week, but I’m not sure that I will be able to.  I’m going to try and do my best food/exercise and water wise but I am realistic.  If I don’t do my best (which I plan to try my best)  I will quickly get back on track and continue in my weight loss journey.  Merry Christmas all!!

Still trying to keep positive.  I had that horrible feeling of dread all the way to work this morning, but it wasn’t so bad.  Today was only 8 hours.  There were a few times when things were starting to get to me and then I just took a step back and regrouped.  I hope the rest of the weekend is good.  Two more 12 hour days then I get a day off.  I did pretty good on my food today.  I ate breakfast this morning before work, even though it makes me a little queasy to eat that early.  I packed a frozen dinner and an orange for lunch and picked up a healthy dinner.  I ate early and decided no more to eat tonight, I finished dinner before 6pm.  I got in a little bit of walking at work, not much but at least a little.  I’m hoping I keep in a positive frame of mind and do well this week.  I already have lunch for work tomorrow planned out and will have a salad for dinner tomorrow night.  I still need to work harder to get my water in.  Well I hope that everyone out there is doing good on their plans and hope that you guys don’t have to work like me this weekend.  Happy Friday!!!!

Today was weigh in day for me…..and…..no loss, but no gain.  I maintained this week.  Which after the week I’ve had, is not so bad.  I have been in a slump and feeling down, but today I got to thinking that I need to snap out of it.  I need to work harder to think positive and make healthier choices, which will help me to feel better.  So I got up today and decided to get back on track.  I did better with my eating today (minus one little blip).  I had a healthy breakfast, then we ate at Chili’s for lunch and yes I did have chips but I chose a salad instead of my usual fare.  I got in lots of walking today out Christmas shopping and even got a few more gifts to boot.  I came home and unloaded all of my shopping and cooked a healthy dinner; baked chicken, brown rice and vegetables.  So I am moving forward and am hoping for a good loss next week.  What I am really worried about though is work, that is what has had me feeling down and overly stressed.  It has been one thing after another stressful thing lately.  And starting tomorrow I have three long, long, days in a row and even though I am dreading it I have made up my  mind to think positive.  Positive self talk.  I will keep telling myself that everything is great and I love my job.  Does this really work?  We will see.  I am also going to try harder to take my breaks and pack healthy meals for lunch. 

I’m still here.  I havn’t been able to post for a while.  Monday and Tuesday were incredibly busy at work and by the time I got home I was soooo exhausted.  My weight loss efforts seemed to have stalled.  Stress seems to do that to me, I lose focus of everything else.  I feel like I’m in a slump.  Sometimes it seems that I’m just running on autopilot to get through the day.  As I have said before, I work really long hours in an acute setting as a nurse, the last couple of months everything at work has been very high stress for me, add to that a long commute to and from work.  I’m not sure if its just the job or if it’s me.  Monday I was so busy at work that I didn’t get a chance to take any breaks all morning so I had nothing to eat or drink until almost 2 in the afternoon.  I know that this is not good for me.  Yesterday wasn’t much better, I did work hard yesterday to at least get in water.  I’m hoping things get better soon…. but I’m not sure.  I hate being in a funk.  My mood has been so blah this week.  I’m off work today but just don’t feel like doing anything, feel like I need to recover before going back this weekend.  I have had a lot going on and it still doesn’t seem like it is even Christmas time.  I will have to work 12 hour shifts both Christmas eve and Christmas.  (I had to work Thanksgiving too.)  We haven’t had a chance to get a tree yet, I have no decorations out and have hardly bought any presents.  I feel like I’m missing out on my life.  I’m usually one that gets very excited about holidays, I love spending time with my family.  I love all the get togethers that others dread and I will be missing them.  I’m sorry to whine, but my motivation is very low right now.  I havn’t gained any weight-I’m maintaining but really had hoped to lose more by now.  I’m hoping that things will start to look up soon.  I’m going to try to get in some more shopping tomorrow and hopefully next week I can get a Christmas tree.  I have also got to work on getting in some exercise, that should help to lift my mood.  I need to plan for my meals better, the last couple of days have pretty much consisted of frozen meals and cheerios.  I need some help getting out of my funk- comments please!  Hope you guys are doing better than me.  Sorry again about whining.

So as I said, I slipped yesterday.  I didn’t think it was a big deal but I almost went into shock last night.  I stepped on the scale last night before bed, (I have issues with my scale) and it usually is a pound or two higher than my morning weight.  But it wasn’t up a pound or two- more like 5 pounds.  How can it go up five pounds in one day?  It was back to my starting weight from 3 weeks ago.  I wanted to cry- three weeks of work gone in only one day.  We did eat out Friday night too, but I didn’t do too bad and the scale yesterday morning was like 183.4 and last night was 189.2 WTF?  I’m trying to rationalize that it was the ham, because ham is soooooo salty and now maybe its just fluid.  But I don’t know.  Today I got up and the scale still wasn’t back down 186, so I started in on drinking water.  I know that I have issues with the scale and I must have weighed at least 5 times today.  I finally gave up and just feel blah.  I finally convinced my guy to go do something.  “Please lets just go ride around or anything.”  I needed to get away from the scale and my kitchen.  So we did, we were going to see friends but they were not there.  We rode around and looked at houses.  We would love to be able to build a house, but that is still a long way off.  That helped to get my mind off things for a while.  We stopped at one of the local stores to buy some bottled water and ran into a friend that I havn’t seen in a while.  She is having some problems and filled us in- I felt really bad for her, but didn’t know what to say. I hope that everything works out for her.  I got to thinking on the way home that I’m really lucky.  She is having a tough time and I don’t know if I could be that strong, or what I would do.  Then I started thinking about how upset I was this morning about my scale and felt kind of foolish.  I’m still upset because I really want to lose weight and have been trying, but I know that this is not the end of the world.  I will get back up and get back on track.  The thing is though, I don’t feel good and for some weird reason I am craving fried food.  I would love to have some french fries or anything fried, even though I know I shouldn’t.  I know that if I did I would only regret that too.  Don’t worry fellow buddyslimmers- I won’t we don’t even keep oil in the house.  Couldn’t fry anything even if I wanted to and all of the local places are closed so it would be a 30-40 minute drive into town to go get that evil fried food.  I won’t.  Tomorrow is a new day and I have a long work week comming up so hopefully I will make up for it this week.  I’m asking for encouragement.  I need all of the motivation I can this week!  Sorry for all of the whining, but it does help to write it and get it out of the system.  Hope everyone else is doing better on their journey.