slimmersoon

This past weekend was horrible at work and yesterday I was in a funk all day.  I’m not sure why.  I was totally unproductive.  I laid around the house all day, ate like crap and of course no exercise.  I hate when I get like that.  But I’m feeling better today.  I woke up this morning and despite yesterday the scale went down a little bit.  I got up, had some breakfast and decided to start tackling my to do list.  I actually got a good bit done today.  I did pretty good at lunch.  And most importantly I made myself exercise today.  I did one hour on my treadmill, even running some thanks to upbeat music on my iPod.  Then I took my dog on a 30 minute walk outside- he was very excited!  My eating has been better too, however I really need to go get some groceries.  I have enough salad mix for a small salad with supper but other than that no more fresh fruits or veggies in the house.  I have been craving fresh fruit, which means I’m not eating them like I should.  I must restock soon.  It is amazing what exercise does for my mood.  I’m feeling so much better than yesterday, I know exercise makes me feel better and allows me to deal with stress and I’m more productive and I hate that I will do good for a while then slack back off again.  It just seems to be a never ending pattern that I do good, then not so good.  I am getting better though, my slacking phases are fewer and shorter than in the past.  I just need to remind myself more often of my goals and work harder to reach them.  I know I can do it. 

I don’t really have anything interesting to post, but it has been a while so I figured I should post something.  I have been feeling really blah lately.  I’m not sure if it is the time change, the weather changing or what.  I got my flu shot at work a few weeks ago and haven’t been feeling too perky since.  I don’t think that that is all of my problem.  Everyone at work is sick and there is so much crud going around.  This week I have been making an effort to get back on track at least with my eating.  I went to lunch with my brother on Wednesday and didn’t choose as wisely as I should have but other than that I have been doing pretty good.  I even made a big taco soup yesterday, which is actually pretty healthy and I made enough to take it to work with me all weekend.  I picked up sushi for supper tonight and it was sooo gooood!  I have been craving it but since my boyfriend (the only person who will go eat sushi with me) is away at work I haven’t had it in a while.  Some good news: I am almost back to my pre-vacation weight!  But in all honesty I probably did worse after coming back from vacation than when I was on vacation but oh well.   I’m working all weekend and the weather is terribly gloomy, it is forecasted to rain and get really cold through the weekend.  I’m hoping next week brings sunshine and motivation!  I really need to get back to exercising.

Oh where did it go?  It was my driving force….eating right, exercising, drinking my water, going, going, going….GONE.  Where has my motivation gone?  Have you seen it because I really need it back?

Things have been really weird the last few weeks and I have gotten off track.  I desperately want to get back on track but I am having problems getting motivated again.  I was doing so well….  The beginning of October my boyfriend and I went on vacation to the Smoky Mountains (for our birthdays and anniversary) and it was an absolutely awesome vacation.  We got in tons of exercise, walking and hiking but apparently I still ate more than I should have because I came home with a few extra pounds.  Then family dinners and soforth those few pounds made some friends.  I was still exercising, just not like I should have and eating was horrible.  Then my boyfriend of 12 years after working at home for a year went back on the road to work.  I miss him so much and we don’t know when exactly he will be coming home.  It could be 3-5 weeks or longer?  After being together constantly for a year, I feel lost.  All of our days off had been together and we were always doing something.  Now when I have a day off I just feel lost, I try to stay motivated but I admit I have been feeling a little depressed.  I will get up and clean a little, do this or that then lay down on the couch.  Blah.  This past weekend at work was also a nightmare foodwise.  Our weekend doctor brought in boxes of doughnuts 2 days in a row then we ordered out for lunch both days.  I usually try to order healthy or bring my lunch but due to time of the month and no motivation I totally caved in.  I had chips and salsa all weekend for supper and ate pizza for lunch on Sunday. 

This type of living must stop!!!!!  Yesterday I got up and still had my lazy depressing morning on the couch but I did much better on my eating.  I drank tons of water yesterday and even exercised again.  I walked an hour on my treadmill then got out the ball and the weights and did those while watching tv.  This morning I’m still feeling a little blah but eating has been okay so far.  Healthy cereal with skim milk for breakfast, chicken salad on wheat for lunch.  I’m going to start my water and head to the treadmill soon.  I really want to get back to where I was and keep going down.  I weighed in at 169 this morning.  I would love to be in the 150’s by Christmas and I know I can do it, if I can just get my motivation in check.