slimmersoon

Oh where did it go?  It was my driving force….eating right, exercising, drinking my water, going, going, going….GONE.  Where has my motivation gone?  Have you seen it because I really need it back?

Things have been really weird the last few weeks and I have gotten off track.  I desperately want to get back on track but I am having problems getting motivated again.  I was doing so well….  The beginning of October my boyfriend and I went on vacation to the Smoky Mountains (for our birthdays and anniversary) and it was an absolutely awesome vacation.  We got in tons of exercise, walking and hiking but apparently I still ate more than I should have because I came home with a few extra pounds.  Then family dinners and soforth those few pounds made some friends.  I was still exercising, just not like I should have and eating was horrible.  Then my boyfriend of 12 years after working at home for a year went back on the road to work.  I miss him so much and we don’t know when exactly he will be coming home.  It could be 3-5 weeks or longer?  After being together constantly for a year, I feel lost.  All of our days off had been together and we were always doing something.  Now when I have a day off I just feel lost, I try to stay motivated but I admit I have been feeling a little depressed.  I will get up and clean a little, do this or that then lay down on the couch.  Blah.  This past weekend at work was also a nightmare foodwise.  Our weekend doctor brought in boxes of doughnuts 2 days in a row then we ordered out for lunch both days.  I usually try to order healthy or bring my lunch but due to time of the month and no motivation I totally caved in.  I had chips and salsa all weekend for supper and ate pizza for lunch on Sunday. 

This type of living must stop!!!!!  Yesterday I got up and still had my lazy depressing morning on the couch but I did much better on my eating.  I drank tons of water yesterday and even exercised again.  I walked an hour on my treadmill then got out the ball and the weights and did those while watching tv.  This morning I’m still feeling a little blah but eating has been okay so far.  Healthy cereal with skim milk for breakfast, chicken salad on wheat for lunch.  I’m going to start my water and head to the treadmill soon.  I really want to get back to where I was and keep going down.  I weighed in at 169 this morning.  I would love to be in the 150’s by Christmas and I know I can do it, if I can just get my motivation in check.