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I can’t believe it myself, but I have actually avoided stepping on the scale since last week.  I saw a number I didn’t want to see and haven’t got back on.  But tomorrow will be the day.  I have been trying to eat better.  I made myself choose the salad today even though it’s not what I wanted for lunch.  And for supper I did baked fish, salad, and corn on the cobb.  I came right home from work today, no stops and immediately got on the treadmill- even ran some.  I’ve also been drinking lots of water the past 2 days.  However, despite all of this I am dreading getting on that scale in the morning (what if it’s still the same…or worse).  I think its because I had been allowing myself to weigh everyday, sometimes more than once a day…. even though it did not motivate me to do better.  I have a fear of the unknown.  I know I’m just rambling, but thanks for listening.  Happy thoughts for tomorrow :)  Hope all of my buddies are having a great and healthy week so far.

Happy New Year to all of my fellow buddyslimmers.  I am looking forward to the new year.  A new year and new changes.  This past year has been a very busy one with lots of changes.  I decided to look back at my blog and my post from last new year’s and I had made a list of changes/goals for myself.  I actually did pretty well on some of them, some of them fell short but are still in progress.  New Year’s day 2 years ago I weighed right at 200 pounds and I am proud to say that I am down around 30 pounds.  Sure I would like to have lost more in a 2 year period; but what I have lost I’m keeping off.  This year I want to continue my weight loss and my goals to be healthy and more fit.  I recently became engaged and will be getting married this year.  We are not planning any big wedding or anything but I would love to be much smaller when the day comes.  I want to be a cute bride and look nice in a dress.  I definately want pictures.  I have not worn a dress in years though…. We would also like to start a family soon and I really want to lose at least 20-30 pounds before getting pregnant.  It’s not just about numbers though, I want to be healthy and strong.  So again this year no resolutions just goals.

I recently found out that I did get a new position at work.  I am very excited.  The hours will be much better (no more 12 hour shifts and no more weekends).  This new position should also be a lot less stressful.  I start on Monday, yay.  I’m planning to start a regular exercise program now that I will be getting off early enough.  I am even contemplating joining a gym, but for now I have a pretty good setup here at home (treadmill, weight bench, exercise ball, free weights) I just have to use all of it.  I have made lots of changes in the past year on my eating habits.  Although the holidays have been challenging.  I just have to remember to plan ahead and keep all of the junk out of the house.  I can’t eat it if I don’t have it, and I live too far out to just run out and get something.

So as much as I did not want to I weighed this morning and was up a bit, I’m at 169 pounds.  I know what I need to do to reach my goals, I just have to do it.  I want to thank everyone for all of the support this past year.  I think that 2009 will be a great year!!!  Good luck to all of my buddies.