slimmersoon

Sorry I wasn’t able to post yesterday.  It was a long day and the crappy dial up connection I had told you about crapped out completely.

Recap from yesterday since I didn’t get to post (my telephone line for the computer had some issues-got it fixed today).  Yesterday was an unbelievably long day at work.  I’m a nurse and I got pulled to a different area of the hospital than where I usually work, for an 8 hour shift then went back to my regular area to finish out my full 12 hours.  I was stressed a little due to the fact that I was unfamiliar with the routine of the other area and I stayed busy- no big deal it was a pretty good day overall.  I didn’t get to eat breakfast and only had a 270 calorie lean cuisine.  I also got in tons of walking at work.  After work I had to run by the grocery store and pick up some more lunch foods for us to take to work.   So I went from 4:30 am to 8:30 pm on only 270 calories, needless to say I was starving by the time I finally got home and could eat (oh and had no water all day, whatsoever).  So I just grabbed what was quick and easy.  I had egg rolls for dinner, and they were good.  I thought it would be worse but calories for the entire day came up to less than 1200.

Today, I have been in a blah mood, no reason really.  I didn’t sleep well last night- I think that I was too exhausted to actually fall asleep, ever happened to anyone else?  When I got up I was stiff all over, I must have walked more yesterday than I realized.  I have spent most of the day just hanging out around the house, the telephone guy came this morning and fixed whatever was wrong with our line.  I have had a headache for the majority of the day, which I finally got rid of with Motrin and diet coke (caffeine).  I think that PMS is just getting the better of me, which by the way makes me really nervous about weighing in tomorrow morning.  Anyways, sorry I know that I am rambling again. 

Food I guess has been okay today.  I ate breakfast today!  Lunch and dinner were combined into one meal, probably a little high but I think I’m still keeping calories withing a reasonable range today.  I must confess still no exercise, last week I had made plans to exercise every day that I was off, unfortunately I think that only lasted one day.  My motivation is waning, which I am going to blame on PMS.  I know that’s not the only reason.  I have always tended to do really good for a little while, then okay for a while, then bad, then really bad….. then start over at good again.  It’s a viscious cycle and I need to get off that merry go round.  I want to get into the mindset of a healthy lifestyle.  I don’t want to be really strict until I get to a certain date or certain weight.  I want to retrain myself and the way I think.  I want to get in the habit of exercising so that instead of it being something I have to or need to do- it will be something I want to do.  I want to eat a healthy balanced diet that I can do without feeling like I’m missing out or being deprived.  I don’t want to have to count calories or points for the rest of my life- I know that right now I need that but I hope that one day I can make healthy decisions without doing that, that will help me to maintain a healthy weight.  I’m going to get there…it’s a ways off, but I’ll do it.  Okay off of my soapbox for now- thanks for listening.  Thanks to all of the comments and support it keeps me going, especially in times that my motivation is low, like now.