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I can’t believe it myself, but I have actually avoided stepping on the scale since last week.  I saw a number I didn’t want to see and haven’t got back on.  But tomorrow will be the day.  I have been trying to eat better.  I made myself choose the salad today even though it’s not what I wanted for lunch.  And for supper I did baked fish, salad, and corn on the cobb.  I came right home from work today, no stops and immediately got on the treadmill- even ran some.  I’ve also been drinking lots of water the past 2 days.  However, despite all of this I am dreading getting on that scale in the morning (what if it’s still the same…or worse).  I think its because I had been allowing myself to weigh everyday, sometimes more than once a day…. even though it did not motivate me to do better.  I have a fear of the unknown.  I know I’m just rambling, but thanks for listening.  Happy thoughts for tomorrow :)  Hope all of my buddies are having a great and healthy week so far.

Happy New Year to all of my fellow buddyslimmers.  I am looking forward to the new year.  A new year and new changes.  This past year has been a very busy one with lots of changes.  I decided to look back at my blog and my post from last new year’s and I had made a list of changes/goals for myself.  I actually did pretty well on some of them, some of them fell short but are still in progress.  New Year’s day 2 years ago I weighed right at 200 pounds and I am proud to say that I am down around 30 pounds.  Sure I would like to have lost more in a 2 year period; but what I have lost I’m keeping off.  This year I want to continue my weight loss and my goals to be healthy and more fit.  I recently became engaged and will be getting married this year.  We are not planning any big wedding or anything but I would love to be much smaller when the day comes.  I want to be a cute bride and look nice in a dress.  I definately want pictures.  I have not worn a dress in years though…. We would also like to start a family soon and I really want to lose at least 20-30 pounds before getting pregnant.  It’s not just about numbers though, I want to be healthy and strong.  So again this year no resolutions just goals.

I recently found out that I did get a new position at work.  I am very excited.  The hours will be much better (no more 12 hour shifts and no more weekends).  This new position should also be a lot less stressful.  I start on Monday, yay.  I’m planning to start a regular exercise program now that I will be getting off early enough.  I am even contemplating joining a gym, but for now I have a pretty good setup here at home (treadmill, weight bench, exercise ball, free weights) I just have to use all of it.  I have made lots of changes in the past year on my eating habits.  Although the holidays have been challenging.  I just have to remember to plan ahead and keep all of the junk out of the house.  I can’t eat it if I don’t have it, and I live too far out to just run out and get something.

So as much as I did not want to I weighed this morning and was up a bit, I’m at 169 pounds.  I know what I need to do to reach my goals, I just have to do it.  I want to thank everyone for all of the support this past year.  I think that 2009 will be a great year!!!  Good luck to all of my buddies.

This past weekend was horrible at work and yesterday I was in a funk all day.  I’m not sure why.  I was totally unproductive.  I laid around the house all day, ate like crap and of course no exercise.  I hate when I get like that.  But I’m feeling better today.  I woke up this morning and despite yesterday the scale went down a little bit.  I got up, had some breakfast and decided to start tackling my to do list.  I actually got a good bit done today.  I did pretty good at lunch.  And most importantly I made myself exercise today.  I did one hour on my treadmill, even running some thanks to upbeat music on my iPod.  Then I took my dog on a 30 minute walk outside- he was very excited!  My eating has been better too, however I really need to go get some groceries.  I have enough salad mix for a small salad with supper but other than that no more fresh fruits or veggies in the house.  I have been craving fresh fruit, which means I’m not eating them like I should.  I must restock soon.  It is amazing what exercise does for my mood.  I’m feeling so much better than yesterday, I know exercise makes me feel better and allows me to deal with stress and I’m more productive and I hate that I will do good for a while then slack back off again.  It just seems to be a never ending pattern that I do good, then not so good.  I am getting better though, my slacking phases are fewer and shorter than in the past.  I just need to remind myself more often of my goals and work harder to reach them.  I know I can do it. 

I don’t really have anything interesting to post, but it has been a while so I figured I should post something.  I have been feeling really blah lately.  I’m not sure if it is the time change, the weather changing or what.  I got my flu shot at work a few weeks ago and haven’t been feeling too perky since.  I don’t think that that is all of my problem.  Everyone at work is sick and there is so much crud going around.  This week I have been making an effort to get back on track at least with my eating.  I went to lunch with my brother on Wednesday and didn’t choose as wisely as I should have but other than that I have been doing pretty good.  I even made a big taco soup yesterday, which is actually pretty healthy and I made enough to take it to work with me all weekend.  I picked up sushi for supper tonight and it was sooo gooood!  I have been craving it but since my boyfriend (the only person who will go eat sushi with me) is away at work I haven’t had it in a while.  Some good news: I am almost back to my pre-vacation weight!  But in all honesty I probably did worse after coming back from vacation than when I was on vacation but oh well.   I’m working all weekend and the weather is terribly gloomy, it is forecasted to rain and get really cold through the weekend.  I’m hoping next week brings sunshine and motivation!  I really need to get back to exercising.

Oh where did it go?  It was my driving force….eating right, exercising, drinking my water, going, going, going….GONE.  Where has my motivation gone?  Have you seen it because I really need it back?

Things have been really weird the last few weeks and I have gotten off track.  I desperately want to get back on track but I am having problems getting motivated again.  I was doing so well….  The beginning of October my boyfriend and I went on vacation to the Smoky Mountains (for our birthdays and anniversary) and it was an absolutely awesome vacation.  We got in tons of exercise, walking and hiking but apparently I still ate more than I should have because I came home with a few extra pounds.  Then family dinners and soforth those few pounds made some friends.  I was still exercising, just not like I should have and eating was horrible.  Then my boyfriend of 12 years after working at home for a year went back on the road to work.  I miss him so much and we don’t know when exactly he will be coming home.  It could be 3-5 weeks or longer?  After being together constantly for a year, I feel lost.  All of our days off had been together and we were always doing something.  Now when I have a day off I just feel lost, I try to stay motivated but I admit I have been feeling a little depressed.  I will get up and clean a little, do this or that then lay down on the couch.  Blah.  This past weekend at work was also a nightmare foodwise.  Our weekend doctor brought in boxes of doughnuts 2 days in a row then we ordered out for lunch both days.  I usually try to order healthy or bring my lunch but due to time of the month and no motivation I totally caved in.  I had chips and salsa all weekend for supper and ate pizza for lunch on Sunday. 

This type of living must stop!!!!!  Yesterday I got up and still had my lazy depressing morning on the couch but I did much better on my eating.  I drank tons of water yesterday and even exercised again.  I walked an hour on my treadmill then got out the ball and the weights and did those while watching tv.  This morning I’m still feeling a little blah but eating has been okay so far.  Healthy cereal with skim milk for breakfast, chicken salad on wheat for lunch.  I’m going to start my water and head to the treadmill soon.  I really want to get back to where I was and keep going down.  I weighed in at 169 this morning.  I would love to be in the 150’s by Christmas and I know I can do it, if I can just get my motivation in check.

Sunday night and man what a weekend.  It has been a good weekend, busy but good.  It seems like I need a few more days rest before heading back to work in the morning.  I have been go go go all weekend especially yesterday.  Friday we got a late start we headed into town.  We did lots of shopping, took care of some errands and went to eat.  Yesterday I got an earlier start, but I did get up and exercise before starting my day.  My boyfriend and I have the same birthday and it is also our anniversary, its coming up next weekend.  We went and visited with his dad then went into town and met my family for lunch, they took us out to eat (for our b-day/anniversary) and then we all went to my brother’s house, where they had cake and ice cream.  You could definately say it was not a good food day for me, but I was really glad I had exercised first thing.   We were rushing from place to place and finally went to a pub last night to watch one of our friend’s bands play.  We had a great time!  Today I have been trying to catch up on housework (mainly laundry) and reading blogs.  I cooked a bisque for supper tonight and am ready to get back on track tomorrow. 

While my eating has not been the best this weekend, I’m not upset or beating myself up about it.  I had a great weekend with my friends and family and I still journaled everything, even the cake and ice cream.  I drank my water and got in some exercise, though not as much as planned.  Tomorrows a new day and I’m ready.  I’ve already planned what I’m taking for lunch, I will pack extra water and hopefully be able to sneak down to the workout room on last break for some exercise.

Hope everyone else had a great weekend! 

I finally got there.  Yay!  After weeks and weeks of inching my towards a very small 5 pound mini goal, I finally did it.  I weighed in this morning and I made it!  It’s been taking me a really long time to lose but I’m making progress and I am really excited.  The scale read 164.2 this morning.  I think I’m going to set my next mini goal for the 150’s.  It’s been so long.  Even back when I did WW several years back my lowest weight was 163 (a 40 pound loss at the time) then I started gaining back.  But there is no turning back this time.  It certainly does help that I have been getting lots of compliments lately.  Don’t you just love those.  Some of them are from people that I have not seen in a long time so the last time they saw me was 30 pounds ago or so.  But I’ll still take them.  Compliments make you feel good and want to keep going.  I’m going to work hard to keep my motivation strong.  I recently got some smaller clothes and that helps and even some of the jeans I bought a few months back are starting to get a little loose :).  Thank you all for the support, I appreciate it in helping me with my motivation.  Hope everyone has a great weekend!

I have not posted in quite a while, but don’t think that I have given up.  No mam, I am still in this, my progress may be slow but I am still making progress and I am very happy with what I have done so far.  I am still not following any specific diet.  I have been reducing my portions, and learning to listen to my body- sounds weird.  I was raised in a clean your plate family and it has been very hard to learn to stop eating when I’m satisfied and walk away with food still sitting there.  I know it’s all in my head but it can be hard to undo years and years of learned behaviors.  But I have been doing pretty good lately.  I have, on a few occasions, eaten to the point that I was full (even really full once or twice) and I now loathe that feeling.  I like being able to stop when I have had just enough.  I rationalize that I’m not wasting- the rest can be saved for another time.  I also have been trying really hard to choose healthier foods.  I have been doing a lot of research on nutrition and “superfoods.”  And for the most part my diet is relatively healthy, I’m not going to lie on occasion I’ll still have pizza or whatever.  Everything in moderation.  Oh and do I love my diet coke, I know that it is not good for me, but it is one addiction I’m just not ready to give up.  I have been drinking more water, even packing 3-4 bottles in my work bag every day.  Baby steps, lol.  Last night my guy and I went out to eat (sushi again, my favorite) and then went shopping.  I had to buy some new scrubs for work, because (yay) my old ones are too big and they look all frumpy.  I actually fit into a small pant!!!!!  Little things make me so happy sometimes.  I was so excited I bought 2 pairs, I’m such a nerd.  I’m still really lacking in the exercise area.  I really think that is one of the reasons my stress level has been up.  When I exercise regularly I find it easier to cope with stress- have more energy, the whole 9 yards.  I was trying to sneak in short breaks to the workout room at work but things have been so crazy, that hasn’t worked out lately.  I have gotten some good exercise working out in our garden and yard but it’s just not enough.  I think its time to dig out my treadmill, I’m sure its feeling lonely back there in that room all alone for all this time, lol. 

Ups and Downs are to be expected or so it said when I posted my weight today.  But today, it was a gain.  My first to post here on buddyslim.  It’s only 2 pounds but still hard to see.  I have lots of reasons I could rationalize my gain on, TOM, too much salt, etc. But nonetheless its still a gain.  I’m just more motivated now to get back on track.  I still want to reach my next mini goal before my vacation in July.  I totally think that it is doable.  I just have to get focused.  So I’m cutting out all fried foods, which is not much.  Upping my water.  My fridge is stocked with healthy foods and my garden should help.  I have lots of fresh veggies.  I have also started wearing my pedometer again.  I got over 4 miles today at work.  I also finally got my key for the work out room downstairs at work, I just have to make myself take the breaks to use it.  So, here I go- back on track!

I have not posted in a long time, but I’m still here.  I have not given up but my efforts have stalled somewhat.  I have been so busy with work and life and so very stressed that weight loss has seemed to have taken a back burner.  I did have a small gain recently and couldn’t bring myself to post my weight last week but I am now back to where I was.  I am doing better this week.  I cooked and brought my lunches to work- no ordering out (this is a big one).  I have been drinking more water, and yesterday I was so busy at work- I wish I had worn my pedometer- I’m sure I got in at least 10 miles, no joke. 

So I have made up my mind, time to get back on track!  I have got to get motivated and get serious and drop some more weight.  I have one month until my vacation and I would love to reach my next mini-goal by then.  Wish me luck!!!